Thursday, October 15, 2009

Time to Remember & Reflect

Today is a day to remember and reflect. If you or someone you know lost a child then you probably know about today being Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day!! I remember February 25, 2004 like it was yesterday. A very hard day that I sometimes wish I could just forget, but then I think that if I forget about it then I would forget the picture of our sweet baby who was growing in my right fallopian tube.  It was so strange to see my doctor keep swirling around that right tube during the ultrasound, I knew that was our baby, but I knew the picture that I was seeing on the monitor looked totally different from what it should have actually looked like. Well, after I had my ultrasound on the 22nd followed up by bloodwork and awful cramping and bleeding on the morning of the 25th, I was rushed in for emergency surgery. It was a whirlwind of emotions and uncontrollable crying. I literally don't think I stopped crying until I was fast asleep and going through my surgery. Little did I know that I was 3 months along. It was hard to grasp and so hard to go on, but I made it through.

I dealt with years of infertility after our loss and finally in January 2007, we were blessed with our little boy Cameron. God has richly blessed us and I couldn't be happier to have such a special little boy to share our lives with. He is a miracle and I must say that I am so happy that IVF worked for us! I don't really know why things happen, but after doing some major soul searching, I have come to realize that things happen for a reason and we just need to trust in God. I was always the type of person to take the wheel and try to control certain things in my life, but as I was going through IVF, I realized that I just need to give it all to God and let him take the reigns and when I did that, things fell into place and we were blessed with wonderful news!! We were pregnant and after so many years, we were so ready to hear those special words.

So, on this day, I will take a moment to light a candle at 7:00 pm in remembrance of our child that we lost and the many other men and women that lost their children as well. Can you imagine what Heaven looks like with all of those precious children dancing around? Wow, I bet that is a beautiful sight!!  Please take a moment to remember all of these precious children that left the world way too soon.

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God has you in his keeping.  I have you in my heart!!

17 comments:

ohiofarmgirl said...

Tears... Dianntha

Susannah said...

In my prayers......

Susannah

Kimberly said...

Lisa, I'll be thinking of you lots today! I lost a little one too, at three months along and we didn't know I was expecting. It was a very hard time, and my best friend from high school gave birth to twins on the day I miscarried. Lots of ups and downs that day!
I hope you're doing well! Hugs, Kimberly

Kris ~ Simply Prim said...

Very touching, Lisa!! My thoughts are with you!

Take care my friend,
~Kris~

Tomatoe Creek Prims said...

Will be thinking of you today, Lisa!

Craftyperson said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you....

Hugs,Trena

Sherrie said...

Lisa, you and Shawn and millions of other parents have had to make the ultimate sacrifice and you will all be in my thoughts and prayers today and everyday. I can't imagine Heaven without little children. They make everything so complete.
Hugs to you today! Sherrie

Mandy in Mayberry said...

Thinking of you and all the other precious families who have been through the same situation. God Bless!

Linda said...

Lisa............You are special and that is why you were chosen to be Cameron's Mom.
Linda

UPON A HILL said...

My heart goes out to you.

~Kim

Grammy Linda / Behind My Red Door said...

I will light a candle - even though it is past 7.

You are in my prayers my friend!

Audrey said...

A lot of people do not relize how once you know you are pregnant you love that child and all the hopes and dreams they hold. You plan a life with that child and the loss is tremendous and remains in your heart forever. I know your pain. I miscarried twice, second time twins. I am blessed for what I have but I always remember.

american girl primitives said...

Lisa,

Blessings and prayers go out to you my friend. I have lost a baby through miscarriage too, a blighted ovum. My body continued to be "pregnant" and grow along but they couldn't find a heartbeat. It was so devastating but I guess God had other plans for me too. We waited awhile and dealt with infertility too and were blessed with Christina after 5years.

Carey

Carey

simple~needs said...

i lost a little one too.
thinking of you............. hugs, kim

cynthialeedesigns said...

Lisa,
I miscarried a child between my two girls. We had been trying to have a second child and I couldn't get pregnant. We had been going through treatments for almost two years and when I miscarried...I was not sure that I wanted to go on trying to have another baby. But I did and am so thankful that I did.

You are in my thoughts this day.
Hugs,
Cindy

In His service, Anne said...

Lisa,
You and many other friends I know are in my thoughts...those dancing babies at Jesus's feet must be something!!
Hugs,
Anne

Elisha said...

Heaven will a lovely place for all those beautiful babies that never made it, to meet their parents.. They are up there dancing with our heavenly father.. and what a delight it will be to meet our little ones we never got to hold.. a lovely day that will be, so i just look into the eyes of my little boy E - and appreciate him everyday.. love soaking my life in his..